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the sheer rush of adrenaline/serotonin/whatever when i click on the link to a fic rec and turns out IT'S MINE LMAOO

i do not want to be perceived which is why i won't say a word but i am v grateful ;w;
lol @ me constantly posting things in public and then being like :surprised_pikachu: when ppl actually read and enjoy them?? my god what a concept

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i'm having the most productive and inspired writing year ever (solely in terms of fandom-related works) and thought it'd get easier as i got back into the groove of things. but lol nope, if anything it gets harder and it still varies a lot. last sunday i banged out like 2k words (that i was satisfied with) in two hours—rare for me, since i'm a fairly slow writer. but then the very next day i could feel "the zone" depleting even as i opened google docs again.

right now it feels like i'm in another rut. i have A LOT of scene ideas, but stringing them together coherently is an entirely different beast. ah, should i make that one-shot multichapter? should i start something new for a change of pace? either way, i'd like to make some good progress this weekend.

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shaking and sobbing bc some lovely stranger just randomly gifted me a fic out of nowhere?????? when i got the email notif my first thought was huh. i think this is a mistake. but then i read their author’s note in the beginning and almost passed out from their kind words sdfkdflsdffk ;;;; also it’s gonna be a multichapter fic?? for srs????? i’m... i honestly don’t even know what to say i’m so puppy dog eyes emoji rn aughhhhh
 
btw i’ve already read it once and i’m gonna read it again just to get all my thoughts together!! i hope i can convey how excited i am w/o pressuring them to update b/c honestly... お気持ちだけで十分だ
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Recently Finished

When the Tiger Came Down the Mountain by Nghi Vo
I didn't know I needed a sapphic romance between a scholar and a tiger in my life but here we are! Nghi Vo's novellas are simply delightful. I've already raved about her lyrical, immersive writing style in a previous post, but I just have to mention it again. If you enjoy the storytelling structure of folktales within folktales, and the exploration of how multiple truths can exist depending on who is telling the story and why, I definitely recommend this. Literally the day after I finished this, Nghi Vo announced that she would be writing three more novellas in the Singing Hills Cycle. Absolutely impeccable timing. I will read them all.

The Shadow of Kyoshi by F.C. Yee
And with that, I've officially read all of F.C. Yee's works! I really enjoy his writing style and humor, so I hope he publishes more soon, whether it's young adult or anything else. The Kyoshi novels are really enjoyable and capture the feeling of Avatar: The Last Airbender so well that they deserve to be animated. I love the way Yee incorporates the lore of Avatar while still telling a compelling story of his own. The Shadow of Kyoshi was a satisfying albeit bittersweet conclusion to the events of the first novel. It really made me see certain characters in a new light, empathize with them, and reaffirm the fact that yeah, no one knows what they're doing but we just gotta struggle and live on (the book is more eloquent about it, trust me). I also listened to this on audiobook, narrated by Nancy Wu; she's one of the best audiobook narrators imo.

Ninefox Gambit by Yoon Ha Lee
Calendrical rot more like brain rot because wtf did I just read??? The writing style is actually quite palatable, but the content itself was not my cup of tea. Lee clearly knows what he's talking about, and while I understand the underlying principles of the magic system, it's difficult to picture anything concretely, which takes me out of the story. A glossary or character list, even a rudimentary one, would've been beneficial, especially since this is the first book. Jedao was an interesting character, and I was mildly intrigued by the last 10% that finally revealed his past and his motivations (even though the "twist" wasn't that surprising, and probably wasn't mean to be). I enjoyed Jedao and Cheris' interactions, but none of the other characters felt especially compelling or memorable. Maybe military sci-fi just isn't for me. Maybe I don't have the braincells for it. Unless I'm feeling super masochistic one day, I will probably not be continuing the series (though I'm still open to trying Phoenix Extravagant by the same author).

Currently Reading

The Wolf of Oren-Yaro by K.S. Villoso
About 1/3 into the book and it's sitting at about 3 stars. Lots of world-building, politics, and flashbacks, and not much in the way of plot so far. I'm still warming up to Tal, the main character and titular Wolf of Oren-Yaro, so I'm not sure how I feel about the first-person narration yet. Rai seems pretty pathetic but maybe I'll change my mind about him once it's revealed what his real reason was for abandoning the throne. At this point Khine (the con artist) is the most intriguing character, so I'm interested to see who he really is and what his motivations are.

The Devil Comes Courting by Courtney Milan
I'm enjoying what I've read so far, but at the same time I'm not super compelled to pick this back up every time I put it down. I like Amelia; not sure about Grayson yet. Milan did say on her website that this book can be read as a standalone, and I wanted to pick this book up as soon as possible because it features a Chinese female protagonist, but it's possible I'm still missing some context from the other books in the Worth Saga. There are discussions about the accumulation of microaggressions and seemingly "innocuous" comments that all BIPOC have experienced in some capacity, and how mentally exhausting it is to deal with and constantly have to justify your own anger. Even though these discussions hit a bit too close to home at times, I appreciate that these issues are even addressed at all.

Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex by Angela Chen
I've been reading at a pace of one chapter per day and will probably be finishing it this weekend. Truly one of the best nonfiction books I've ever read. Rather than defining what is and isn't asexuality, Chen encourages the reader to broaden their perspective of what asexuality can look and feel like. Every aspect of the book is well-researched; Chen not only describes her own experiences (which I definitely saw myself in) but also includes interviews and article extracts from diverse sources and aces from all walks of life. I appreciate the discussions on intersectionality as well, and how culture, background, race, mental health, and disability all inextricably factor into sexuality without invalidating one's identity. I'd even go as far as to say that this book is required reading for aces and allos alike, as well as those who are questioning, because surely there is something new to learn for everyone.
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Recently Finished

Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata
This novella made me crave those Japanese 7-Eleven karikari triple consomme snacks and those perfectly-sized tuna/chicken teriyaki/ham/egg sandwiches so badly that I almost cried. Anyways, our protagonist is Keiko, a woman in her mid-30s who practically worships the convenience store she works at because it's the only place with rules and standards that she actually understands. I was worried about the ending at first but was pleasantly surprised by the message it conveyed, that it's completely possible to live an independent, fulfilling, and happy life without following the norms, conventions, and timelines that society imposes. Will absolutely be picking up more from this author.

Dial A for Aunties by Jesse Q. Sutanto
One of the cutest covers I've seen, but unfortunately the interior was a mess. I enjoyed the relationship between Meddy and her mom and aunts, as well as the celebration of Chinese-Indonesian culture, but that's about it. Everything wrapped up far too neatly and easily, and the love interest also fell flat. Like sure, sometimes it's nice to read about a guy who doesn't carry around heavy emotional baggage and is completely, unconditionally in love with the girl, but their relationship was just too vanilla for my tastes. The absurd plot progression would've worked better as a movie, so even though I won't be picking up the sequel, I'll definitely keep an eye out for Netflix movie casting news.

Currently Reading

The Devil Comes Courting by Courtney Milan
I freaking loved The Duke Who Didn't so the moment I found out Courtney Milan was writing another book featuring an Asian female protagonist, I added it to my TBR so fast. This is only my second historical romance book ever and I'm definitely savoring it. The reality is that this is a super whitewashed genre, so props to Milan for writing POC as the main characters and love interests. Only about 10% in, but the premise intrigues me and I have high hopes.

The Shadow of Kyoshi by F.C. Yee
I respect characters who choose to remain kind even when the world throws shit at them, but I also respect characters who decide to say fuck it and go apeshit. So yes, I am declaring myself a Yun apologist.
In all seriousness, F.C. Yee's is one of my favorite authors; I enjoy his writing style and humor a lot. Part of me wishes I'd picked this up last year when my A:TLA rewatch and the first book (The Rise of Kyoshi) were still fresh in my mind. Some names escape me but I remember the major plot points. Kyoshi and Rangi's relationship is still adorbs (do people still use that word? lmao).

Ninefox Gambit by Yoon Ha Lee
Almost DNF'd at 5% because my brain was not computing. Lee just hurls you into the middle of a conflict with all these names, factions, and terminology (something about herons? eels??) and there isn't a glossary or character list in sight. However, once I got about 40 pages in, I realized that it's actually not that complicated! Essentially six factions (with their own unique quirks and rivalries) are trying to contain a "calendrical rot" (think a rebellion against mathematical truth) before it messes up their military weapons, their way of life, the laws of physics, etc etc. Simple, right? :D

When the Tiger Came Down the Mountain by Nghi Vo
28% into this novella. Gah, I just love being back in the Singing Hills world. Nghi Vo's writing and storytelling style are impeccable as always. A sapphic romance between a tiger and a scholar? I can't wait to continue.

Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex by Angela Chen
Wow, I've barely made a dent yet (about 7% in), yet I'm already feeling so validated. I always appreciate a nonfiction book that can tell a good story while being educational, and so far Angela Chen's writing is on point. Seriously, someone stop me before I highlight every single passage.

~

I'm trying this thing where I read multiple books at once because even though I want to read, my attention span is just not having it. Here's hoping that switching between books throughout the day will help. Next week is my week off, so my goal is to knock out the whole list!
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Ayyy I got into the closed beta (it lowkey looks like everyone did, but hey, as Yotsuba would say: Enjoy Everything)!

It's too bad our data won't transfer to the actual app but that's all right. Tbh I've been a bit burnt out from mobile games since the middle of last year. I ranked up to level 100+ in Mahoutsukai no Yakusoku (MahoYaku) and got into MLQC for a bit after watching the anime last year, but then abruptly stopped everything. While I won't be returning to mobage madness anytime soon, I am a bit curious about the characters of Tears of Themis and the Ace Attorney-esque gameplay (at least, that's my first impression from scrolling past a couple screenshots).

At this point it's hard to say which of the four boys will be my favorite. The character designs are good, but none particularly call out to me. We'll see!

I was tempted to download the Chinese voice pack since it is the original language, but ultimately decided on Japanese voice pack. What a surprise, right? I am a seiyuu stan first and a human second.

Closed beta starts sometime tomorrow in my time zone. I'll (try to) post regular updates with my thoughts throughout the week.
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Barely into May and I've already completed my 2021 Goodreads Reading Challenge of 60 books.

Well.

Considering that there was a time in college when I couldn't even bring myself to read 5 pages, I'd say this is pretty poggers.

I do feel a bit burnt out from reading and media consumption in general though. Maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to slow down a bit. Although I've been reading more than I have in years, I've been enjoying the books less and less. Back when I had very limited time, it seemed that I would savor each book more (anything was better than studying, and any piece of literature was better than a textbook, after all). The goal is to get that feeling back, but it's easier said than done.

It's not like anyone's rushing me or forcing me to read. I could easily read 100+ books this year, something I don't think I've ever accomplished, even in elementary or middle school. I feel like I have lots of free time while I'm simultaneously running out of free time. Sounds paradoxical, but it's true. I'll never have enough time in the world to read all the books I want to read, to discover all the stories that will resonate with me. That's one of the reasons why I try to read as many books as possible in the shortest amount of time, which can inevitably lead to burnout.

Ugh. Why do I have to turn even my hobbies into a race for productivity.

in a funk

May. 3rd, 2021 07:32 pm
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I'm going to make an effort to update this thing at least once a week. That's manageable enough, right?

Lately I just feel like there are so many things I want to say, but I can't find the right words to say them. Even though I know that no one else is going to read this, it's like part of me just needs the words to perfectly encapsulate what I want to say, and that's the part holding myself back from speaking and posting freely. The goal is that regularly updating this DW journal will help me remedy this, or at least make it easier to get things off my chest as time goes by.

Big fucking yikes under the cut. )

Okay, that's enough for now. Jfc. Hopefully not all the weekly updates turn out to be this negative lmao.
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As a mood reader who tends to follow their TBR for three days max before veering in a completely unforeseen direction, readathons have usually ended in disaster for me. Thankfully, the Asian Readathon seems fairly laidback, and there are plenty of books that I’m looking forward to that could easily fit many of the challenge prompts. So I thought to myself—why not?

The Asian Readathon takes place from May 1st to May 31st during Asian American and Pacific Islander (AAPI) Heritage Month and is hosted by Cindy [profile] withcindy on YouTube. Be sure to check out the announcement video for more details. Per the bonus rule of this year’s challenge, each book you read should feature a character or author of a different Asian ethnicity. This is to encourage cultural diversity.

Challenges and TBR )

Throughout the month of May, I plan to focus solely on books written by Asian authors and books that feature Asian characters. It’s just a personal project that I’ve been planning to do for a while now, and the Asian Readathon looks like a great way to add some fun to the mix. Of course, Asian stories and Asian voices should be celebrated and amplified all year round, not only during AAPI Heritage Month, because we have many brilliant stories to tell. ☆

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